Thursday, August 18, 2016

Pivot

I started this blog in 2013 to recount my experiences having a very simple but life changing eye operation that granted me stereoscopic vision for the first time. It was an incredible experience, and the feedback I received was some of the most gratifying and inspirational I've ever gotten. I haven't really kept at it because my experience has very well stabilized and that chapter has come to an end. It has led to many other avenues of thought and experience that I'd like to share, but the ways that my improved vision have ricocheted through my life is hard to isolate from the rest of the experience, which may also need retelling. It's a long winded way of saying while the changes in me continue, they have less to do with my reaction to a new sensory input, but how that experience, and my reactions to it, have informed the rest of my life.

I've also been told throughout the years that I am private and hard to get to know. I know this is true, and that might also be something worth discussing at some point. Suffice it to say, I tend to ask more questions and focus on other people than share that much about myself. Social media has given us a tremendous ability to share our random opinions, but I tend to take a very narrow curated view of my facebook feed, the one and only social media platform I use. There's lots I leave out, and I dont' tend to engage in too many of the heady discussions, such as the election or the latest tragedy. I internalize things, and it's really hard to be articulate in short form about things that matter to me. Plus, for me, facebook is about kid pictures, stupid jokes, random songs from youtube and playing whatever dumb viral games come around. And about catching up on what my friends are up to. Seeing their pictures, reading their thoughts. It makes me feel distant and isolated to not take part in some of the more heady discussions, but I don't want to be misunderstood.

Like anybody I do have lots of opinions, and I'm happy to share them. I think I'd rather do it in a considered piece that articulated a fleshed-out point of view, rather than trying to condense my thoughts into a pithy tweet. Too much can be assumed, or misconstrued. It's just more natural for me this way. Maybe it's because I'm a Cancer by astrological sign, endowing me with the ability to flow like a river and see many sides of an issue. Maybe it is indeed that I am private and I tend to process things internally, on my own. So I could use a forum to share some opinions, and even flesh them out for my own benefit.

So I'm going to change up the nature of this blog a bit. It's name is relatively generic, and we can say that I'm going to dive into depth not only about my eyesight, but about other things on my mind. Or about other experiences. As a writing exercise. As a way to share opinions with others in a forum that I feel works for me, and to otherwise contribute to the great ongoing conversation of the internet. The last thing the world needs in 2016 is another damn blog. So don't read it then. It is in the end just for m,e and for anyone who cares to know more about me. And if that's you, then thank you. Also, I'm trying to write songs and need to keep a good writing practice going. It helps my work. I write a lot all day. Maybe I'll talk about that too.

So we can call this the last of the old-school Diving Into Depth. So let's take a minute to discuss my eyesight 3 years in.

As I said above, the dramatic revelations related to my eyesight are a thing of the past. My eyesight is very stable. My sense of depth and wide periphery are a part of my daily life, and I still savor them. I do many more things that others take for granted that are still new to me. My yoga practice has never been better, and I'm starting to do better at drishti gaze. It's all good. It's brilliant.

And also like I said above, the changes continue. Changes inside. Ways I feel about myself. How I carry myself. My sense of adventure. My sense of what's possible. These are the ripple effects that the vision surgery put into motion over three years ago. And I really do have lots to say about a lot of things. My attitudes have shifted. I'll get to as much of it as I can and as much seems appropriate. My vision blogs will of course still stay where they are. Have a look and let me know what you think.

So please read on. If you want to get to know me and engage in conversation. The world needs another mouthy opinion like it needs another hole in the head, but I have as just as much right to my opinion as anyone, and maybe some connections can come out of this. I won't commit to a regular schedule or predictable pattern. I'm going to just try and keep showing up at the page and see what happens. I'll lay my opinions and observations down to you as eloquently and as entertainingly as I can. Dear Reader, and try to keep you coming back.

Peter




1 comment:

  1. I'm very glad I randomly tuned in. ^_^ Cheers.

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